Monday, February 18, 2013

Thankfulness

As God draws me closer to Him in this waiting journey of coming home to my family, He has blessed me beyond measure by answering a prayer that has been settled within my heart for a long time and is linked to my desire of coming home and homeschooling the kids.

I realized just a week or so ago that I’m with child again.

Over the years God has been softening my husband’s heart to the idea and as I’ve idly sat by and watched his desire for another child grow, I had been focusing my energies on transitioning home first before adding to the family. I guess God had other plans in regards to adding to our family first!

While we haven’t broadcast the news yet, we’ve been ecstatic as if we’re expecting for the first time. I’ve been through this before, but it’s like a new world again to me. To think that a new person is growing inside me gives me hope as we continue forward with bringing me home.

In the past few months I’ve remained encouraged through God’s Word. The "Jesus Calling" devotional continues to be an immense blessing to my heart and mind as each morning God’s Word is refreshed. I can relate to each entry and the reminders that each devotion brings has given this waiting experience perspective.

I understand that God has a purpose for every experience of my life and He’s drawing me to lean and depend on Him and on my husband. As I submit to my husband, I can see that my husband is dying to self by striving to align our life according to God’s Will. And, as he submits to God day by day I am letting the reigns go of trying to control situations and just let allow God and my husband to lead our family.

I’m learning so much about God’s provision in these times and what it means to truly depend on him. He will never forsake us.

Joshua 1:5, 9
as I have been with Moses, I will be with you; I will not fail you or forsake you.
Be strong and courageous! Do not tremble or be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.